Tuesday

Hippy and Groovy.

Hippy and Groovy.

(Pictures taken March 21, 2016)

Hippy, Happy and Groovy
by: Lysa (3/23/16)

I raise my hands and felt the breeze
While eyes were closed, I let my knees
Feel the fields of dandelion
With gazing celestial Orion

Flying and flying up above
With the massive flock of white dove
Blue and green, colors that surround
As the peeping sun was now crowned

Life as it is, and I shall flee
But if you must really know me
Groovy, as I recalled my name
Free-spirit, hippie and a dame


I suddenly missed writing poems, and here it goes! I was inspired to write this because these days, I've realized that I'm hippy (minus the flowers on my head and some addictive drug). But yeah, it feels like the society is dragging me down and killing the insides of my being. The troubles of my life as a student, is draining my energy. I don't know how to describe it in words, but what I know is that I'm making memories and I have to be strong.

How about you? How is the soul inside you?

Music of the day: The Rip by Beirut (I'm really into indie music and if you are too, you have to check this out)

Wednesday

A Little Break from Reality.

A Little Break from Reality.
A glimpse of confusion. Taken March 16, 2016.

Update:
You might to just skip this part for this would be the most boring paragraph you'll ever read from this post, since this paragraph is dedicated to my thesis. But yeah, this is one of the turning point in my life. It is literally draining- physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. It could brought you down the lowest possible state of yourself, lower than the ground. Yes, I'm working on it. My data are not as positive as it should be and they are still pointless. I just had repeated the whole process again. It's like the effort and time were useless. But I guess, mistakes are part of life and we have to make room for it, though you like it or not. We have no choice but to embrace the fact that failures is like a milk to a baby. It will feed you, until you are intelligent and strong enough to be victorious! Doing thesis has made me realize the importance of renewing the mind, of attracting the positive forces by saying and telling, This was posted at my instagram account:

"I will GRADUATE this JUNE 2016. I will have POSITIVE AND GOOD RESULTS WITH MY THESIS! I'm claiming it Lord! THIS IS MY YEAR! THIS IS A YEAR OF HARVEST. You are greater than anything else! My trust and confidence is in you Lord. One day, I'll be using this experience as a testimony to others that they may also be blessed and reminded how great you are! And you, You can do it! Whatever battle you are facing right now, you can do it! It just takes a positive and renewal of mind to have a breakthrough!"

And yes! best things in life are the "unplanned ones". Definitely! It's just so comforting to know that in spite of my down and desperate moments, there are still people whom I can cherish my life with. There are still people that reminds me that "thesis" is not my entire life, it's just a part of it. It makes me realize how much time has passed and here I am, almost at the finish line. I am about to enter a new phase of my life. But before which, everything has to fall down, to be whole again. I sometimes enter the "confusion phase" in doing my experiments in which I have spent countless hours with no good/positive results. I begin to ask myself, "Am I gonna finish this?". Looking through my perspective, it's impossible. But no, God is with me, and I know He is. 

Burgers for Piso (march 16, 2016)

Today, our city is celebrating its anniversary and it's also my day off. it's really weird to think that I call my experiments "duty". But yeah, I spent the afternoon with my awesome high school buddies. it's really awesome because my best friends and I are together for almost 8 years now. I know it's really awesome and I'm just so blessed to have them in my life, in spite of everything, here we are still. I've seen how we grew together, still we have lots of things in common. I'm so happy to have them as friends since not all people have someone whom they can call "real friends". We spent a really good time together, knowing that we are complete. Ah yes, it's really nice to be with those people whom you can say "I belong". 

But YES! I'm back to reality again. Laboratory works tomorrow. Thinking about it makes me tired. It makes me bored and constricted (I can't find the right word). I just want to live free at the moment. I want to explore life and it's treasures. I want to be happy. I want to soar the hidden mysteries of the world that we are living in. I want to have a life, more than what I do in the laboratory, more than what is taught in the four walls of the classroom. I need to do something more. I need to extend to the limits of my capacity and of my existence. I would like to let my soul breathe and feel the breeze that I seldom notice. 

What's your story?


Tuesday

Road to Graduation

Road to Graduation
(Taken: Feb 12, 2015)

“Life Is Like A Carnival Ride, It Has Its Ups, Its Downs, And All Its Twerks. But We All Know That In The End It Was Fun And Worth The Wild Ride” -Terrin White


I'm on my last days of my stay here in our university. And now, I can feel the pressure and the stress from my thesis. I have some free time, but I'm too tired to make a life out of it. I guess my thesis life has isolated me from the world. Doing thesis is literally draining- physically, mentally and spiritually. I remembered what my thesis adviser told us during our consultation, "Don't let your thesis manage you, you manage your thesis". She also told us that our lives doesn't only revolve around writing thesis and doing experiments, life means something more. Though I often forgot that I still have life outside. In addition, balancing life is important -social, physical and spiritual to be more productive.

In spite of her advises, the situation hadn't gotten better. My experiment is so long and full of uncertainties. I don't know what's waiting for me, but what I know is that I have to have good results and accomplish everything on second week of April. But I'm too exhausted. I'm tired of going to the lab and doing experiments. By the way, I do microbial and chemical analysis in the lab. Mind you that it's no joke. I can't imagine my life doing things like those everyday. The smell of agar still stinks in my nose even when I'm at home. I don't know, there are just times that I just want to end everything, I want to give up. You know that feeling when all you want to do is to watch how the skies changes colors and how the birds fly freely. My mind is always occupied of worries and anxiety. Time passes quickly and it's March and I'm not even half way through it. I'm not sure how, but what I know is that I will graduate this June 2016. No matter how impossible it is to finish everything with so little time, I will graduate this June 2016. And I'm claiming it. You know that determination when everything is against you, well I'm learning how to do it.

Here are the things that I've learned while doing my thesis: (This might come in handy for you readers)
1. The importance of planning
2. Researching and researching
3. Don't hesitate to ask questions when in doubt. It's always better to ask and be sure than doing the wrong things all the way
3. Be patient with the people whom you are interacting (especially in laboratories)
4. Read and understand the methods
5. Scheduling of activities (laboratory experiment). In my case, I learned to put the exact time of the day to when to conduct the specific experiment.
6. Asking for the divine intervention. No matter how hard you research and followed the methods, sometimes, time won't favor you. Certain things may arise that may cause errors to your experiment. I know it, been there.

Failing is a part of doing the experiment. I've failed to understand and meditate the instructions, causing me to repeat it all over again. But hey, the more I fail, the more I learn. Doing my experiments has challenged my whole being. I learned the importance of positivity and supernatural faith. Graduating from my UP is not easy as 1,2,3 or as simple as A,B,C for though there may be ups and downs, at the end of the day, I know that this thing is worth it.

We all have stories to tell, I wonder what's yours.

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